A quiet person
"I agreed that what really matters is what you like, not what you are like… Books, records, films - these things matter. Call me shallow but it’s the fuckin’ truth, and by this measure I was having one of the best dates of my life." - Rob Gordon in High Fidelity

It’s horrifying how much you can hate yourself for being low and weak and he couldn’t save me from that. So I turned it on him; I tried to empty it onto him. But there was always more, you know. When he tried to help I told him that he made me feel small and worthless. But nobody makes us feel that, we do that for ourselves. I shut him out because I knew if he ever really saw who I was inside, that he wouldn’t love me. And we’re separated now, he’s moved away, and it was so hard not to beg him to stay. And I don’t know if I’m going to get a second chance but I have to believe. That I deserve one. Because we all do.

It’s horrifying how much you can hate yourself for being low and weak and he couldn’t save me from that. So I turned it on him; I tried to empty it onto him. But there was always more, you know. When he tried to help I told him that he made me feel small and worthless. But nobody makes us feel that, we do that for ourselves. I shut him out because I knew if he ever really saw who I was inside, that he wouldn’t love me. And we’re separated now, he’s moved away, and it was so hard not to beg him to stay. And I don’t know if I’m going to get a second chance but I have to believe. That I deserve one. Because we all do.

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